Hi-diddley dee, a lawyer's life for me?

Throughout my career as a lawyer so far, from the start of my law degree to date, I’ve always had the feeling that the idea of being a lawyer didn’t really suit me. Lawyers are careful, unexciting, risk–averse, boring. Not quite how a young man normally chooses to see himself. But it’s starting to occur to me that maybe that is precisely what I’m like. I am basically a timid, unadventurous person. I’ve never had a wild phase when I’ve gone off the rails and although I’ve always kind of seen myself as willing to try things, to put myself in interesting situations, I think that despite my best efforts to the contrary, I am congenitally incapable of living dangerously. In the final analysis, I’m not sure I have the nerve for it.

Looking back, I’ve never taken shit–loads of drugs, or got incredibly pissed, or joined a cult, or lived in a squat, or slept with large numbers of people, or, since I was literally about 4 years old, really taken a chance or done anything without thinking about the consequences. And what’s starting to worry me is not that I secretly wish I’d been doing / was still doing those things, but whether I’m secretly glad I never did / will. But I still have this vague feeling that there’s something missing.